hmmph..its the end of vacations...the short n sweet diwali break comes to an end. This is 3:27 a.m. I have a train to catch at 6 a.m. and I have a familiar kind of an uneasiness in my tummy-which never lets me sleep on the night before my departure!And since I had nothing better to do,I rememberd the blog I had started over a month ago...wid the promise of blogging regularly and so here I am-writing God knows what! I am kind of telling myself that now that I am a third yr student-goin into my final year in the space of a few months I shuold be able to handle my departures from home better! But of course , when has the mind been able to dictate terms to the heart?Stupid it is, but yet I'm again a little nostalgic.
As I recall the girl who left this place for college 3 years back , and compare her with the 'me' of today I barely see any resemblances! That's kind of good and kind of bad-bad because I kind of liked the girl I've left behind and good because I know that now I'm better equipped to face this world,which is beautiful at some times but mercilessly evil at others. Though I do miss, at times, the kind of faith I used to have in things like love and in the general righteousness and sense of justice of people in general,I realize this is in a way an awakening, a rude one though. Its like the breaking of a cocoon as you walk out into the glaring light.Suddenly, what you thought was the universe,your cocoon has shattered and you are exposed to a world whose existence was beyond your knowledge...
Ok...weird kindof philosophy when I re-read wat I have written but I told you I'm kind of nostalgic and nostalgia does funny things to you!And though i have second thoughts about this,I think I'll publish it anyway!